You don’t love the Crazy, Sullen Girl (Looking for Alaska FEEEEELS)

Hi darlings!
So this week brought forth a news that really made me giddy with joy–and, well, kind of scared at the same time. LOOKING FOR ALASKA is gonna be turned into a movie!!!

(photo not mine)

Well, I’m happy because Looking for Alaska is one of my favorite books of all time. If you’ve been paying attention, you probably would’ve noticed that this blog’s name (THE ENIGMA OF HERSELF) is an homage to the book. It’s from one of my favorite passages from the book, which goes something like this:

“When she fucked up all those years ago, just a little girl terrified into paralysis, she collapsed into the enigma of herself.”

Here’s what LOOKING FOR ALASKA is about:

Before. Miles “Pudge” Halter’s whole existence has been one big nonevent, and his obsession with famous last words has only made him crave the “Great Perhaps” (François Rabelais, poet) even more. He heads off to the sometimes crazy, possibly unstable, and anything-but-boring world of Culver Creek Boarding School, and his life becomes the opposite of safe. Because down the hall is Alaska Young. The gorgeous, clever, funny, sexy, self-destructive, screwed-up, and utterly fascinating Alaska Young, who is an event unto herself. She pulls Pudge into her world, launches him into the Great Perhaps, and steals his heart.
After. Nothing is ever the same.


Well, this book broke my heart in more ways than one. For starters, Alaska Young is one messed-up, complicated character. She is someone who once dreamed to much, believed in the good things, and did one big stupid mistake that would haunt her for the rest of her life. Alaska is a character that says so much about life; about death; about our choices; about how, no matter what we do, sometimes, the universe just has a different way of going about with things. It is a gripping, haunting, beautiful book. Something you’d want to read over and over again. 

This book is also really special to me. It’s one of those stories that have stayed with me through time and basically, I really like Alaska. (Twitter Handle’s also partly dedicated to her) 

Another reason why I’m excited for this is because of the great SARAH POLLEY who’s such a brilliant filmmaker. Of all her works, I’m most passionate about MY LIFE WITHOUT ME, a story about a young woman who deals with the fact that she has Cancer and how she can live her life to the fullest. I’m telling you, though, it’s not your typical love story plus it has Mark Ruffalo in it–which makes it all the more awesome :>>>> but seriously, it’s a beautiful film and if you want to see how Sarah operates, you better check that one out.
hehe..this pic’s from my old movie reviews on tumblr
Now back to LFA. I’m just scared that it will be hyped up too much the way TFIOS was and it will lose its brilliance. I’m also scared that some people will just join the bandwagon but then again, I really like the story so we’ll see. I’m keeping my fingers crossed. 

Anyway, let me share with you some of my other favorite quotes from the book:

“Is the labyrinth living or dying?”

 “…If people were rain, I am drizzle and she is the hurricane.”

What the hell is instant? Nothing is instant.”

I may die young, but at least, I’ll die smart.”

“That’s the whole point: You never get me.”

“What you must understand about me is that I’m a deeply unhappy person.”

I would always love Alaska Young, my crooked neighbor, with all my crooked heart.” 

“After all this time, it seems to me that straight and fast is the only way out.”

“She had embodied the great perhaps.”

“You love the girl who makes you laugh, and shows you porn and drinks wine with you. You don’t love the crazy, sullen girl.”

Ah, I could go on all day! HAHA! Oh, and I made a little playlist for Alaska, too. I’ll probably be adding more songs in the future, but here’s the playlist for now:


Incubus-Drive
Velvet Underground – Stephanie Says
The  Pretty Reckless – Champagne Supernova
Sarah Mclachlan – Adia
Coldplay – The Scientist
The Beatles – Strawberry Fields Forever
Lana del Rey – Brooklyn Baby
Lorde – Bravado
Ellie Goulding – Explosions
Ryan Cabrera – 40 Kinds of Sadness
John Mayer- No Such Thing
Jason Mraz – Back to the Earth
John Mayer – Why Georgia

 I absolutely cannot wait. Happy Weekend, darlings!

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